I have started several posts and not finished them lately. I feel like I don't have a lot to offer right now. My normal blog-reading is way behind, too. I think my motivation has shifted from keeping up here to keeping up in my house. Whereas once I could do both, I can't seem to right now. So this will probably be a lengthy post that lacks quips, creativity, puns, and anything that would give proof to the fact that I hold a bachelor's in English...I promise you this though, it will contain some scripture at the end, so hang in there!
We've been a busy family the last month (to the day actually). We've had dr appts with specialists for both kids that has given me a new lease on life. Grace had to have a kidney/bladder test done. It was no walk in the park for her (or her daddy and me) but she is a tough cookie and the two ladies who did the procedure said she did great. Within an hour (have I said we were super impressed), we were told her bladder and kidneys appeared to be functioning normally and that there did not appear to be any damage. I give God the glory for that. My parents went to the hospital with us and when we came out and told them (and Noah John) the GREAT NEWS, my mom got down on her knees and thanked God. I want to be like that. So focused on Him. My Grandpa Roy would drop to his one knee NO MATTER WHERE HE WAS. He was known to get out of his car and get down on his knee in the gravel or whatever. Humility and reverence joined together.
Noah John is fine as well. He has had incidences of limping and "his hip going out" for over a year. It usually lasts less than thirty minutes but occasionally, he will limp for a few hours. We took him to see an ortho at a specialty place because we are from a small town and there is no children's ortho here. We didn't think we were even going to need to follow-up until one Sunday about a month ago. He wouldn't get out of the floor during Sunday School. His teacher thought he was being stubborn. Come to find out-he was having trouble getting up. I felt so sorry for him when I figured out what was going on. I had prepared myself to give him a stern lecture when Shawn came to the room and explained that he noticed NJ had been limping earlier! So...back to the kiddo ortho we went. The best part about the visit was the fact that his dr's office was located a mere few steps across from Grace's dr's office (and her appt was the very same day). So we went in one appt, walked across the hall, and into the other appt. I counted that a blessing too, bc it would have been harder on the kids to have to walk much of a distance. Noah John's dr is not exactly sure what, if anything, is going on with him. I'm just going to leave it at that because Noah John has been mostly fine since the appointment. We did have him tested for muscular dystrophy because he falls so frequently, and that test came back normal...the nurse said Dr. M said it was "very reassuring." Um, yes, VERY, Dr. M. Grace and I were on the front porch when I took the call. NJ had fallen probably 10 times in 1 hour that morning so my mind was abuzz with anxiety. When I hung up the phone I told Grace that her brother had gotten a good report. I teared up and told her I'd explain it to her more someday. She said, "For now that's all I need to know, right?" I said, "yes." She said, "I hope I get good results when I have my test done." I said I believe you will and we prayed. When you think of my family, thank God for His provision and also lift up my son to be healthy and not have any hip problems. We are trusting God.
I had no idea when I had babies how much lack of control I would ultimately have over them. I said that to a friend who has a 2 year old with a heart condition, and she said, "I KNOW! Why didn't anyone tell us?" Haha. There is no love like the love between a mother and her children, except for the FATHER'S LOVE FOR US.
John 3:16 For God so loved the world that he sent his ONE AND ONLY SON that we should not perish, but have eternal life.
What a relief that someday, we will have a life free of pain, sickness, worry, fear. I was listening to kids memorize their Bible verses last night at church and one of them memorized this verse, "He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning
or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away." -Rev 21:4 It is hard to get to church on Sunday nights but I am always blessed when I hear children say scriptures. I really enjoyed this one, because I thought, how awesome that this little boy has this HOPE ... THANK YOU GOD!!! I think it is so awesome that I attend a church where the WORD OF GOD is memorized by children at such a young age. Do I think they will remember every verse I sign off on? No. But I do think that they will be blessed for studying it and that the scripture they need will come to mind when they need it.
It's been quiet in my house for a whole hour. G left with her daddy to go deliver sod in Paducah. She was decked out just like a country girl should be- jeans and PINK shoes, PINK ball cap, PINK t-shirt. Little thing climbed up into that semi like a pro! She has changed by leaps and bounds lately...and I am going to go ahead and say it, I don't think I have ruined her, despite my many fouled-up efforts of dealing with 'beyond' imaginable strong-willed behavior! I told her how much I regretted yelling yesterday and she grabbed me with both arms and pulled me to her really fiercely. That girl is special and I believe God is going to use her! Little brother is asleep. It was either - take an early nap or watch TV all day. Don't judge! Lest you be judged! LOL!!! He woke in a terribly cranky mood and I'm in the middle of yet another organization project. Goal is: a quiet lunch, read the Bible, work on my project, take NJ outside. He asked me a couple times before he drifted off if I would take him out. My children are so sweet. They don't want much. Just my time. Working on being with them-in the moment-instead of doing my little projects. I just keep thinking...organization saves time in the long run. Somebody pray for me to get there! I am at a crossroads! Shawn thinks I'm getting so stressed about it that it is not worth it! :-/
Signing off while the silence continues...ahhhh. I think the Lord knew I needed this today. He is so good like that.
